For the first time in her life, she felt free
The wind was blowing in her face
Her hair was following freely behind her
It felt to her as if she was flying
She was finally in control of her life
This was all her decision, alone
And now, no one could tell her no
No one could ruin it for her
She was purely, completely, free

Before this moment, she was scared
Could she actually do it? Should she?
This was the last thing she’d thought of
And perhaps it’d be the best thing ever
She thought of everything that led to this
She’d never been surer of anything, ever
She was used to doing dangerous things
But it seemed like the rush wasn’t enough
Not for her, not any more

Just a second after this rush began
Her mind began working faster than ever
She began to rethink her decision
And in a more negative way now
Was this really what she wanted?
Would this solve everything?
Just seconds ago she felt sure of it
Now that it was too late, she regretted it
She closed her eyes, praying,
“Please, I’m not ready! Not yet!”
Then, praying turned to begging
Tears flew from her eyes
Staining her saddened face
But then she hit the ground
And it was too late

October 18, 2010