Sleeping Life Away

Wake up at nine, can’t keep eyes open
Go back to sleep until eleven
Start nodding off playing Sims
Fall asleep on the couch until noon-thirty
Feel like the day is wasted, so take another nap
Wake up at two, have zero energy to do anything
Stare at the computer screen
Nothing to do but sleep

Septmeber 11, 2021

Higher

The marijuana at night puts me to sleep
And the coffee wakes me the next morning
The Benedryl at work is to calm me
And the Monster to wash it down keeps me awake
I do anything not to feel while staying conscious
Feelings weigh me down when all I want is to float

September 10, 2021

I Can’t

I’m trying to get to you
But the thought of you keeps fading
Will I get to you before you completely disappear?
Any hold on you I think I have is fleeting
Time keeps passing by too quickly
And before I know it, it’s too late
I can’t get to you

September 7, 2021

My View

I
Start at a dead-end
But force a path through
A path that should already exist
Severe accident, never the same
Daily accidents as a result
But continue on, pretending
That all is fine, all is normal

II
Your path is lonely, alienating
People know you’re there
They can smell you a mile away
Some are mean and tell you
The rest keep their distance

III
Create a bypass
To avoid the unsafe path
But neglect maintenance
Become an unsightly cancer
But continue on, pretending

IV
If you can’t rely on yourself
You rely on no one, nothing
Everything crumbles
You’re questioning everything
Pushing everyone away

V
Remove the bypass
Resume on the flawed path
Which remains unchanged
Nothing is said about that
But continue on, pretending

VI
You can’t love someone else
If you don’t love yourself
You can’t trust someone else
If you don’t trust yourself
You can’t live with someone else
If you can’t live with yourself

VII
Years of travel smoothed the flawed path
By some miracle of life
Still some accidents, still too many
But continue on, pretending
That all is fine, all is normal

August 25, 2021

Venom

I injected my venom within your brain
You try to leave me, but I consume your thoughts
I control you without giving a single command
You planted something within my brain as well
I cannot think about anything or anyone else
You control me without even trying

August 23, 2021

I Need You

In a dark world, you are the one bright spot
In a room of chaos, you are a source of calm
When I am lost, you are my navigator
When I am weak, you are my strength
You think you are unworthy
It is me, unworthy of you

August 22, 2021