Sometimes

Sometimes I wish I could just fall off the face of the earth
Instead of facing the things that cause me stress
Sometimes I wish I could just scream and yell in her face
Just to make me feel a little better about it
Sometimes I wish I could just pretend everything’s fine
So that I can keep the friendship I have forever

July 26, 2010

What to Do

I hate most of what she does anymore
I just can’t figure out why she does it
Sometimes, I just hate her for it all
But then I feel bad for hating her
And it just stresses me out
And I fear losing my friend
But it simply comes down to
I don’t know what to do

July 26, 2010

Write it All

I never knew how stressful this monster was
This dark, monstrous cloud hanging over me
I was blind and oblivious in the friendship
But now, with direction from others, I can see

I thought that maybe, if I just pushed it all aside
If I just brushed everything off and let it all go
That maybe things would stay the same
Or at least, not get worse, but now I know

There is simply one thing left for me to do
If I can force myself, I’ll write her a letter
Relieve the stress, unburden my mind
I’ll write it all till I feel even a little better

August 6, 2010

A Year of Latin

For Light

I don’t know what happened
It was just a little choice in life
To take a year of Latin first
But it has made all the difference
I’ve always wanted that one
Special friend that I’ll have
No matter where we may go
And I just realized that…
I’ve had this friend, right here
Since tenth grade, because
Of a simply choice to take
A year of Latin in grade eight

August 30, 2010

Why Forever

Why?
Why did I do that?
What was wrong with me?
Why did I always act like this?
Is there any answer for my prayers?
Is there any solution to what I’ve done?
This is something I’ll always regret doing.
This is something I’ll never understand.
It’ll haunt me for the rest of my life.
But it’s over and done with.
But I can’t take it back.
But it’s permanent.
Forever.

September 27, 2010

Freedom

For the first time in her life, she felt free
The wind was blowing in her face
Her hair was following freely behind her
It felt to her as if she was flying
She was finally in control of her life
This was all her decision, alone
And now, no one could tell her no
No one could ruin it for her
She was purely, completely, free

Before this moment, she was scared
Could she actually do it? Should she?
This was the last thing she’d thought of
And perhaps it’d be the best thing ever
She thought of everything that led to this
She’d never been surer of anything, ever
She was used to doing dangerous things
But it seemed like the rush wasn’t enough
Not for her, not any more

Just a second after this rush began
Her mind began working faster than ever
She began to rethink her decision
And in a more negative way now
Was this really what she wanted?
Would this solve everything?
Just seconds ago she felt sure of it
Now that it was too late, she regretted it
She closed her eyes, praying,
“Please, I’m not ready! Not yet!”
Then, praying turned to begging
Tears flew from her eyes
Staining her saddened face
But then she hit the ground
And it was too late

October 18, 2010

What a Difference

I turned my back from this place
So many years ago, left not a trace
I just upped and left, never to return
I couldn’t deal with the never-ending race
There would be no winner in that game
No one wanted love, trust, only fame
I wanted more in life than just that
I knew when I left, I’d never be the same
When I left, my people were still there
I loved them, but not once did they care
They didn’t realize what they were doing
I couldn’t live like that, I just couldn’t bare
Ten years later, I’ve come to check in
Wondering what has become of my kin
I thought they’d still be fighting
Didn’t think someone would win
But it seems I was wrong, and I couldn’t believe
Exactly what’s become of this place since my leave
No one’s survived, none of my people
Nothing’s come out of it, nothing achieved
I walk all around, purely depressed
I see all the places that once gave me stress
I came from this place, yet I’m so different
From all the people that created this mess

October 19, 2010