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I watched all my friends throwing themselves at guys
They did it just to get a boyfriend so they weren’t alone
I didn’t do that, so I ended up left out, and lonely
But years later, at our high school reunion
Their love has either died, or only lasted on sex
And I, because I waited, arrive with the love of my life
June 5, 2010
When you’re walking down the street
Talking about someone behind their back
Do you look behind you constantly
Just to make sure they’re not there?
When it’s pitch-black at night
And you’re in the kitchen getting a drink
Do you have to sprint past all the windows?
When you’re in a classroom without a teacher
And you want to do something not allowed
Do you have to check the hallway eleven times?
Sure, it’s better to be safe than sorry
But, paranoia will destroy ya.
June 5, 2010
There are so many things I want to say
But I’m just holding back, biting my tongue
There are so many things I want to do
But I’m waiting for the “right moment”
And when I’m on my deathbed,
All those things will swarm around my head
And drown me in regret
June 11, 2010
Sometimes, I just don’t understand
But, underneath it all, I’m not sure
If we are truly meant to understand
June 11, 2010
For my friends
Don’t let the last day of school
Be the last day of chilling with friends
Keep in touch with them
They are your friends, aren’t they?
June 14, 2010
Caps and gowns for graduation
Makes me feel so much older
But it tears me away from friends
And without them, I feel colder
I think I’m excited for college
A new life I think I’ll find there
But leaving my friends at home
That might be too much to bare
June 16, 2010
For Dad
There’s something therapeutic
About taking your anger out
On an unknown enemy soldier
As you aim through the scope
And press R1 to take the shot
July 10, 2010
Sometimes I wish I could just fall off the face of the earth
Instead of facing the things that cause me stress
Sometimes I wish I could just scream and yell in her face
Just to make me feel a little better about it
Sometimes I wish I could just pretend everything’s fine
So that I can keep the friendship I have forever
July 26, 2010
It starts with annoyance
Then it turns to anger
Sometimes, hatred
But then, pain
And certainly stress
Possibly fear
Then, to finish it,
Confusion
July 26, 2010
I never knew how stressful this monster was
This dark, monstrous cloud hanging over me
I was blind and oblivious in the friendship
But now, with direction from others, I can see
I thought that maybe, if I just pushed it all aside
If I just brushed everything off and let it all go
That maybe things would stay the same
Or at least, not get worse, but now I know
There is simply one thing left for me to do
If I can force myself, I’ll write her a letter
Relieve the stress, unburden my mind
I’ll write it all till I feel even a little better
August 6, 2010